Thursday, February 24, 2011


The following is a Facebook note written by Isaac on February 24, 2007.  I couldn't think of any better words to write on the anniversary of his death than those written by him exactly 3 years before he died.

Why I am excited to die
Saturday, February 24, 2007

Sorry for a such a strange title, don't worry, I have no intentions of committing suicide of any sort. I just came to the realization that death is so much closer to us than any of us think. I am exicted to die to see what reality of life is beyond this. I have hope that what I believe as a Christian is what will happen. I will not be naive and say that I know 100% that when I die I will go to heaven, I have a hope grounded in faith, not blind faith, but a faith that is backed up by many evidences and rational that I will go to heaven. You can't really know anything 100%, but you sure can come close, faith takes you the rest of the way. Another reason for being excited is that I won't have to deal with this cancer crap anymore, It'll be done and instead of a body of flesh and bones, I'll be a body of flesh and spirit! I can't see getting bone cancer if I don't have any bones! haha 

On the flip side, I realize the scaryness of death. What if I am completely and utterly wrong about the afterlife? What if things are exactly the opposite of what I now believe? What happens then? I am also coming to realize that death is lonely, even if you die in the presence of other people, it is something that you do utterly alone when you are "gone", well unless you join the huge massive collection of souls as some hindu's and buddhists believe.

In conclusion though, I feel that I my purpose here is not over, that I have many things to look forward to... meeting new people, traveling new places, developing relationships, and pouring myself out for others. If I can do these things I think I will have fulfilled a good part of my purpose for living.

When I look at those things Isaac felt he had yet to do, I am speechless.  Meeting new people/developing relationships - we met, fell in love and got married.  Traveling new places - we went to West Virginia, took our first cruise, and went to Houston twice.  Pouring myself out for others - any member of the youth group during those 3 years will tell you this was done over and over.

When I think about that, I know that one year ago, on this day, at 6:30 in the morning - Isaac finally heard the words every believer in Jesus Christ can't wait to hear - "Well done, my good and faithful servant."


  1. That was beautiful. I got kind of choked up! What a great perspective on living and dying. Makes you look forward to heaven, huh?!

  2. This is so true, we really can't live until we are ready to die. and to have faith and hope in God is the answer and the reason this is possible. God bless Jess and her family and all their friends in this time of reflecting.Thanks for posting this, it touched my heart.

  3. Wow. Thank you for sharing Isaac's story...i am in tears! You are an incredibly strong woman!! To God be the glory!