Wednesday, January 11, 2012

It Can't Be Coincidence

This morning, I wrote about how I finally broke the "widow weight" barrier and hit the weight I weighed on my wedding day.

Today when I went to the grocery store and saw these for the first time this Valentine's season.

After Valentine's Day 2009, my mom bought 20 bags of these hearts and we sprinkled them on the tables at my wedding.

I thought that was a funny coincidence.  Then, I was sitting thinking about that coincidence and I realized that today is another anniversary of sorts.  This day, 2 years ago - the Wednesday before Martin Luther King, Jr day, Isaac and I had a conversation I'll never forget.  Isaac was scheduled to go for blood counts the next day, and he'd been feeling really tired all that week.  He said "Tomorrow they'll tell me either I need more red cells and I'll get a transfusion, or it's my oxygen level and I'll have to go on oxygen"  I immediately burst into tears, recalling the words of the MD Anderson oncologist - "When/If Isaac goes on oxygen, he will have only a matter of weeks left." The next day, Isaac was admitted to the hospital and put on permanent oxygen.  He died 7 weeks later.  So I started thinking maybe this wasn't all coincidence.

Then, just now I sat down at my computer to do some schoolwork and turned on my Pandora.  The first song that came on was "You Never Let Go" - the last song I remember standing with Isaac and singing, and also a song we sang at his funeral.  Immediately after that, the song "Came to My Rescue" came on.  That song rarely ever comes on.  That song is the last song that was playing on my Pandora the morning Isaac died.

It can't be coincidence.


  1. chills. I would choose to think today was a God Moment. He was wrapping you in His love and letting you slowly remember some of the sadness and happiness that was your time with Isaac. I pray you always feel our Lord's love and comfort.

  2. God's blessings on you as these moments come and you remember your life with Isaac. Precious they linger...