1 Corinthians 12:9-10
There is a number on the scale that has been taunting me for some time now. Since the end of November the closest I have come to this number is 1.5 pounds above it. Throughout December I bounced between 1.5 pounds and 4 pounds about the number. I haven't been able to get past this one darn number.
You see, it's the number I weighed on this day:
Most women who gain weight after their weddings think of that "wedding day weight" as a major goal. For me, it was that but it is also a major milestone. I gained a few pounds after we got married, but most of this extra weight was gained throughout Isaac's declining health and after his death.
And as of this morning, I FINALLY broke that number. I've lost the 25 pounds of "widow weight".
Mostly, I feel completely and utterly THRILLED with this! I am so proud and I feel so strong. But, there's this little piece of me that has struggled to get past this number because in some way, I feel like holding on to that extra weight was a way of holding on to Isaac. I know in reality that Isaac would be SO PROUD of me for doing this. He would be cheering me on every pound lost and every time I up my weights at the gym and he might have even choked down a green monster for me. Okay, that last part might be pushing it.
Along with the physical weight I have lost, there has been a huge change in the "emotional" weight I've been carrying. I can't begin to explain how GOOD I feel. I have more energy, I sleep better, I am more confident, I am in a better mood (usually). This comes from not just the physical work I've been doing, but the spiritual work as well. I work hard at staying in God's Word regularly, at praying more consistently, at praising more frequently.
I can't remember a time in recent memory that I have felt this much peace, joy, and contentment. I thank God for giving me the strength to keep working at this. I thank Him for blessing me with 8 months of marriage to someone as amazing as Isaac, who showed me what it really means to have God's strength in even our weakest times.
Progress photos coming on Friday! :-)

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Oh wow! it is time for you to celebrate. You have been through so much and God wants to bless you and he is! How exciting. I can't wait until I have 25lbs off my scale! Time to do some walking! Have a wonderful week!
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Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteMy hubby and I are trying to cook and eat salt free and low fat and fewer carbohydrates. Loosing a couple of pounds already. They that WAIT upon the Lord shall loose WEIGHT.
I may have that one mixed up a bit, but it sounds good.
Congrats on the weight loss...emotional and physical! I admire you dedication and determination to meet your goals.
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Alida
Congrats!! That is an awesome achievement! I hope to be where you are someday!
ReplyDeleteWow! Congrats! I followed your link because of the "weight" caption, I am currently in the midst of the battle of the lbs., but I am struck by your entire story. Good luck in your journey and prayers that God will give you joy unspeakable in 2012!
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DeleteCongrats, so happy for you.
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