Thursday, April 12, 2012

Running Against the Wind - Last Part!

Check out part 1, part 2, and part 3!

Jason's comparison of the Holy Spirit to breath made me think. But, the way Jason compared the Holy Spirit to wind is what really hit me.  This is where my “aha” moment came from.  When comparing the Holy Spirit to wind, he told a story about how one day he was running on the beach.  You know when you run on the beach there's that one direction where you're just running into the wind?  It feels like you're running as hard as you can and you're expending all of your energy. But then you turn around - and when you run back the wind is behind you, and even though you’re still running and you still have a long way to go - it feels so much easier when the wind is at your back.  

I keep coming back to this idea of I don't want to date...I don't want to go through the hassle and the wondering if they’ll call and is there anyone to date and all of that that comes with dating.

Jason’s sermon and this wind comparison popped into my head and there was my “aha”.  Jess - you are running into the wind. If you don't want to date and you keep coming back to that then just stop trying to date and trust Me. I know it's hard, I know you feel like I’ve forgotten about you but I haven't - just wait because I have something.  Just wait.

Of course I really wish I could end this with a magical moment of “and then the next day I fell in love and we all lived happily ever after” - but that’s just not the way it goes outside of fairy tales!  

I guess the bottom line is, I finally feel really and truly ready - not just to date again, but to really love again.  I’m starting to notice the emptiness of this house, living here alone.  I’ve gone from feeling alone and content, to lonely.  I don’t see that as a bad thing though.  I see it as God moving me from this place of encampment to a place of journey.  I sense God has something right around the corner, I don’t know what it is yet or how far away that corner is, but for the first time in a long while, I feel ready to set out on a journey again.  


1 comment:

  1. Aww Jess...thanks for sharing this with us. I reeeeeeallly want to meet you for coffee!