Sunday, March 3, 2013


Redemption is a common word in the church.  When I hear it, I am reminded first that God redeemed each and every one of us by sending Jesus.  I am reminded that when I made the decision to follow God, I was redeemed - delivered, rescued, saved - from sin.

The topic of this year's Girlfriend Getaway tour has been "It's History" - learning to let go of past sins and live life in Christ's freedom. I've heard the message twice now, and I love it.  But, I always thought the message didn't really apply to me much.  I mean, redemption is really for the people who have let go of "big" sins.  You know what I mean - drugs, alcohol, sexual sin, cheating, violence, etc.  I don't have a "dark" past like that.  So while, yes, I was redeemed through Jesus, I thought this whole "letting go of your past" thing didn't apply to me.

Then, I was running on Saturday.  I had been struggling all week with getting back into control of my healthy habits.  The craving monster had been after me fervently!  I woke up Saturday morning and my legs were tired before I'd even stepped out the door.  I did NOT want to run.  And I had 10 miles to do.

About mile 4, the song "Redeemed" by Big Daddy Weave came on my playlist. My sweet friend Bethany sings this song at our Girlfriend Getaways this year. 

As the song is playing, I was actually thinking about how I could just stop my run at mile 5 when I pass my house.  Then the line "I don't have to be the old man inside of me, his day is long dead and gone" came on. (Bethany sings it with girl and her) and BAM.  I realized - this is me.  I don't have to be the quitter.  I don't have to be the fat girl.  I don't have to be the binge eater.  HER DAY IS LONG DEAD AND GONE.

I replayed the song and as I listened with this new view, I found myself crying (while running) because this song speaks EXACTLY to my struggle (and victory) with weight loss.  The struggle, the shame and regret of overeating.  When I began this journey, I asked Him to set me free from that battle. He did, and He continues to - everytime I struggle, I also pray.  I ask God to fight the battle.  And He does. I've got a new life, I'm not the same. Thank God, He set me free - I am redeemed. 

Seems like all I could see was the struggle.
Haunted by ghosts that live in my past.
Bound up in shackles of all my failures.
Wondering how long is this gonna last.
Then You look at this prisoner, and say to me
"Son, stop fighting a fight that's already been won."
All my life I have been called unworthy.
Named by the voice of my shame and regret.
But when I hear you whisper
"Child lift up your head"
I remember, oh God, You're not done with me yet.
I am redeemed.
You set me free.
So I'll shake off these heavy chains,
Wipe away every stain,
I'm not who I used to be.
I don't have to be
the old girl inside of me
Her day is long dead and gone
I've got a new name
A new life
I'm not the same
And a hope that will carry me home.
I am redeemed.

I'm not who I used to be.

1 comment:

  1. Ok, that before and after picture just made me smile so big!!! You have worked so hard and look at that hot girl in that photo!! Oh my goodness! So proud of you!
    And I just love that song. It's a great one to listen to when I need reminding that despite my crappy outer flesh, that my heart belongs to Christ...and I am His beloved and I have been redeemed!
    Love you! Hope you are well!