Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Be Where You Are

I seem to have settled at around 172 pounds.  That makes 78 pounds lost total.  

It's not my final goal, but for the past several months, my body has decided this is where it is staying. And I'm okay with that.

I started the month of June at 172.6 pounds.  I didn't count a single calorie all month, and started July at 173.  For July, I was really careful with my counting and ended the month at 171.8.  I decided that if I can maintain this current weight around 170-173 WITHOUT counting calories, then I'm going to be okay at this weight for awhile.

I can't believe I'm posting this picture.  But the thing is, when I look in the mirror - a lot of times, I still see the girl on the left. It's a strange thing. 
I think I need to learn to be okay here.  
I'm not 250 pounds anymore.  

This realization hits me when I go clothes shopping.  I was in Old Navy the other day and my dressing room was full of pants in size 8 or 10, and shirts that were Mediums. When you've spent most of your life over 200 pounds, it's not easy to shift your brain to see a size 8 staring back at you in the mirror.

Yes, I still have some weight I'd like to lose.  But I also would like to allow my body (and mind) to get used to where it is now.  I'm training for 2 big races in the Fall and I want to focus on that, not on calorie counting. 

I don't really know what the point to this post is, but I guess it's just a reminder to myself to be happy where I am, and stop wishing I was somewhere else!  I eat in freedom now, I actually love working out, I sleep better, I have more energy, I've made amazing friendships, I am stronger - those are all successes that have nothing to do with a number on the scale!


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