Monday, February 24, 2014

Year 4

I've been thinking about what to write on this day for almost 2 weeks now and I am struggling.  At the "4 year mark" this day doesn't seem to carry the same weight that it has the 3 previous years. Each of the 3 years before, I spent my morning quiet time sitting in my living room staring into the dining room where Isaac was. My morning quiet time just so happens to occur around 6:30am, which is just about the time Isaac left this earth.

This morning, it felt different though.  I didn't stare into that room thinking about how heavy the atmosphere felt. I glanced over, and thought about how grateful I was that God has been SO GOOD to me in the past 4 years.

I posted this on Facebook today: Today instead of sadness, I choose joy. The name Isaac means "laughter", and if you knew him - you know how appropriate that was! There was so much joy in our short time together - and since the day he died, I have watched God bring joy to my life and to so many others through Isaac's story and the things I gained from knowing him.  So today - don't be sad or feel sympathy...feel joy! Joy for the time we had, joy for the laughter he brought, joy for the lessons learned, joy for the lives changed, and joy for the hope we have in Heaven!

This year especially has been a particularly joy-filled year. Looking back on life since February 2013, there are a lot of things to be thankful for. I've run 2 half marathons, a 10-mile obstacle race, a mud run, and numerous 5k and 10k races. I've met so many new people and formed relationships that have flourished over a mutual love of fitness, running, and/or Jesus. I've actively sought out dates - gone on a few first dates, had my first "dating a person for a few weeks" experience since Isaac, and met a few duds.

It's been a year of hard work, success, laughter, love, friendship, and fun. And I'm pretty sure it has been everything Isaac would want for me to have - and more.

To read my thoughts from previous years - check out these posts: Year 1, Year 2, Year 3.

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